Fall

- You're outside, it's the wrong time?
- Time is never wrong.
- I sometimes forget about the difference.
- That doesn't matter.
- Tell me what it's like with you.
- Sunny and heaps of fallen leaves.
- Warm?
- Yes. You know that special feeling of enjoying something which is due to disappear soon? There are days or maybe even hours left.
- You're frightening me.
- It's just fall. It's always like this. Something fades away and you have to tear it off your heart.
- You're right. I've completely forgotten... You've reminded me of something really important.
- Don't say what. Let it stay with you so far.
- I thought you'd say that.
- Joy is always followed by sadness, then comes oblivion and then it's the turn of rebirth. The proverbial circle.
- Then it's the season of sadness now? I'm coming back to New York in a couple of days.
- That's good.
- See you there.
- Sure.

Night in

It's a Saturday night and I'm staying in. More than that, I'm completely on my own. It feels right, though. Okay, since it's Saturday night anyway, I'm supposed first - to summarize on the week, second - to make plans for the weekend. Well, summary first? This week I've had 12 classes, edited 4 chapters of the book, and watched 3 films. Besides, yesterday wandering around killing time between the lessons, I happened on a place which sells Moleskines! Purely by chance. I can't tell how long it's been since I had a Moleskine and how desperately I wanted one and now I've obtained it - it's black, pocket size lined Classic and it's totally awesome! Now I'm comfortably tucked in bed (yes, I was thinking of an early night, mind you, it's only 'thinking') and I'm trying to figure out what movie will put me in the right mood for tomorrow. The romantic side of me craves for rewatching something like 'The Ice Storm' or 'The American Beauty', while the pragmatic one claims I still haven't seen 'Into the wild' and, anyway, there's a heap of DVDs on my bedside table! I'll probably choose on being pragmatic tonight, which doesn't mean I can't tweet the slogan which has been getting me for something like 12 years now: 'The American Dream was over. But the hangover was just beginning. (c)' I can't even explain why 'The Ice Storm' is ever so important to me. I remember only too well how I saw it first. It was a late autumn of 1998 and I was in Russia and good old NTV was still good and they beautifully dubbed movies. It was a late night showing and one of those precious moments when if feels like you've just been through something truly important and you've instantly become more mature. I can't say for sure how many times I rewatched it (I now much prefer the original, of course). But I remember last time I saw it was 2 years ago and that again coincided with a very controversial stage of my life. It's pretty obvious now, isn't it, that I'm not watching it tonight? I should give it a little more time. But, most importantly, I don't fancy doing it on my own. There's someone very special I want to do it with. Someone who is just the same way into it. Then it's worth waiting. And now I've had a cup of hot chocolate, which I don't feel guilty about and I'm right on my way to pick up a movie I haven't seen yet. Have a good Saturday night, everyone!

Music to my ears

Yes, it's Friday and yes it's not TGIF again for I'm working tomorrow. But still the end of the week feels great and I get the mood for watching some nice movie and finding something new music-wise to sync my iPod with for the next week. Music is my greatest source of inspiration in life. If under certain circumstances I was forced to live without music, most probably I would only survive a couple of days. My music taste is very eclectic. But the most important thing is music sounding right for the time being. Want some names? Here we go. (The order's gonna be purely random, of course). I like Jamiroquai funky sound, especially in the beginning of summer. I like PEACHES when I'm on the way to work and in a bitchy mood. I love UH HUH HER, they are awesome! I discovered them a couple of years ago and have been loyal ever since. I can't go without Alina Orlova in early spring! Her complexity and poignant voice never fail to put me in the very special mood! I used to love Kings of Leon, they will forever be associated with someone back in 2007. And although I'm now over them, "Sex on Fire" is still on my iPod. I like the Verve which again bring reminiscences of two unforgettable people. I've been totally in love with MUSE since 2004. Their Unintended saved me through one particularly harsh summer. And yes, it's predictable, but my iPod is never RADIOHEADless! David Brown and Brazzaville went so good in Barcelona two years ago. Amy's ever so dramatic and I love that about her! One of last autumn's (other known as my "very French period") discoveries is AaRon and his album "Artificial Animals riding on Neverland". Placebo's My Special K hides an amazing coincidence for me. CocoRosie with their proverbial Lemonade concurred in so many ways with this hectic summer. Its other pleasant discovery is Holly Miranda. No doubt I have missed out on at least a dozen other important names, but I'd never miss out on Kurt and NIRVANA. I've been seriously into them since I was like 12 and a very dangerous mind.

Dropping you a line

This week's been pretty strange for me and not only. First of all it's still unusually hot but instead of feeling great about it I was really sad today walking along the street seeing the fallen leaves. The air is different now from that of spring and summer, it's much dryer and kind of electric if I can put it like this. Besides it gets dark really early now which is another reason for taking the sweet autumn blues. I've already mentioned on Twitter I haven't got my laptop on me tonight, that's why I'm forced to be using my cellphone to go on the Internet. It's not particularly convenient, so typos might be inevitable. But who said my spelling is flawless? :) Anyway, to kill time tonight I finally finished re-watching "To kill a mocking bird" (no pun intended) and it felt so good! In fact, it always does with this kind of old b/w Hollywood films. Why did I re-watch it tonight? Because I was in the mood for something thought-provoking, because someone worked late and we couldn't go out, but, most importantly, because someone else who means the world to me is nicknamed the same as the little girl in the movie. And that special someone else has just woken up and Saturday, October 2 has just begun there. The world is a wonderful place at the end of the day (again, no pun intended). Do I remember now what I began this post with? Do not forget I'm typing on my cellphone which allows me to see only the line I've just written. But, of course, I remember. Sometimes I wish I didn't have that painfully good a memory as I do. I began with saying how nervous this week has been. Especially yesterday. Maybe it was just the proverbial Friday syndrome or maybe something else was in the air. Whatever it might have been, I hope next time V. and I see each other, she won't be overreacting about a mere trifle that had happened to her the night before. That's about it, actually. Have a lovely weekend everyone and sleepy, cuddly you!