Random thoughts

Just saw Tasya van Ree's new video "Blood is thicker than water". So good! So fresh! So talented! Amber and Whitney are amazing! Made me think of my beach holiday in West Wittering, Sussex just three weeks ago. There's nothing on the face of this planet which I love more than the sea. It doesn't matter which and where. When I feel lazy and in the mood for heat, I usually go to the Mediterranean. My favorite ever spot is on the Tyrrhenian coast not far from Rome. I used to spend innumerable hours and days there. Reading, writing, swimming, eating ice-cream, watching the sunsets, forgetting about everything, believing things were gonna work out the way I wanted to. I'm never miserable near the sea. Never. This summer I was too heartbroken to head to Italy and decided to stay at the English seaside. I know this seems like a very strange kind of logic, but that's just me. The sea in England smells different compared to that of hotter countries. Even its very salt is different - in England it's much finer. The water is cold, sometimes shockingly cold. But strange as it may seem again, it was exactly what I needed. I swam every day, sometimes for as long as an hour in one go. I shivered and trembled when out of the water and had to immediately put on my hoody. Did the clear cold water of the English channel help to cure my heart? Time will show. One thing is for sure, it switches off all the random thoughts and the only thing you're likely to have on your mind is: how do I survive in these insane waves when the tide is coming? And that's good. Because if I'd stayed in the city just a little longer, if I'd checked on my email 200 times a day I might have well flown off the handle! I'm much better now, thank you! Thank you for your unawareness. Thank you for making me stronger even without knowing it. Thank you and I'm not being sarcastic. A year ago I couldn't imagine what I'd be going through now. And there are no regrets, naturally. They never work.